“I understood myself only after i’d destroyed myself. And only in the process of fixing myself, did i know who i really was”
We all have those days where we can’t get out of bed in the morning. Where we get stuck in that rut and we feel like we cant get out.
I’ve been in one of those recently and i can honestly say, it sucks. As simple as that.
I’ve taken a break from everything this week, from people, relationships, and just attempted to do things for myself. It hasn’t been the easiest thing in the world to do and i know i haven’t made the best decisions that i could have made but I think its done me the world of good. Its been nice to see people who i haven’t seen in a while. Talk to people again and just work on myself without having to concentrate on anyone else.
I’ve spent the last few days telling myself that its not okay to feel bad. That it’s not okay for me to have these bad feelings but it is, and sometimes its the best thing for us. To take a step backwards and take a look at all of the amazing things that we’ve got in our lives. To think about ourselves and be selfish for once, when we spend all that time attempting to help others. To take time away from people who you need time from. Just to be by yourself and concentrate on your own recovery.
Recovery isn’t ever going to be a straight line and sometimes you might need to take a few step backs instead of bounding forward without thinking. Think about what’s best for you and even if that does mean being a bit selfish. Sometimes, stepping back is so much better than rushing into the recovery that you might not be ready for that day.
You are worth recovery,